Jace+Reilee+Dot+baby?

It is true I am pregnant.  I say that "it is true" because slowly but surely reality is setting in and just because the lines on my pregnancy test disappeared, doesn't make baby disappear.  Not that I want our little baby to disappear, but when you aren't expecting something so huge as bringing a new life into the world; it can hit you pretty hard.  We were definitely not planning this or expecting this, which is why it is completely perfect.  I love change.  I thrive on unexpected happenings; always have.  When I met Jace it was completely unexpected and our relationship from then until now has been constantly changing and growing and that's why it's the real deal.  And that is why baby Brink is the perfect unexpected gift for the new year.  I am about 9 weeks pregnant as of now and although the nausea is terrible, it has been fun to sit and plan with Jace; our future, baby names, where we'll live (because we are definitely not raising baby in this house... sorry Virgil but I don't want baby waking up to your jam sessions, booming techno music.  1. what awful taste in music. 2..... what awful taste in music.)  But mostly what I love about this whole thing is just that it wasn't in the plans. Since when do plans ever really go the way you anticipated?  Never.  And that simple fact is my most favorite thing about life!  My mother only knows how much I hated planning things in high school because I always knew that something wouldn't go according to that plan and what everyone should spend time doing is learning how to be flexible.  This baby is the true test of everything I've ever believed in.  Be flexible or be miserable.  Be comfortable being uncomfortable.  Crock-pot not a microwave.  Let it be.  Honestly, what better way to just go with it than to unexpectedly be pregnant.

I'll admit I didn't want to try and have babies for quite some time, only because labor really scared me.  That is honestly the only reason we were waiting was because I was scared.  Well, here's my trial of faith right!  Although I don't really believe that plans are plans, there is ALWAYS 1 plan that I trust and that is the Lord's plan.  He obviously thinks I'm ready even if I don't.  He obviously has some little angel up there who needs me and Jace and no one else!  That is worth trusting.  Knowing that, is worth "trying" to get a plan in the next 9 months.  (even though it'll probably change, fall on its face, triumph, fall again, change, etc)